Since surgery I have been convalescing at my best friends
who is amazing. He has been so patient with the kids and myself even though we
have invaded his space. The breast area is painful sometimes and not at other
times. The drain, which is a tube going from my back to a bottle is
uncomfortable and limits movement especially when you try to sleep. As a result,
sleep has been limited and I do feel very tired a lot of the time. I have to
inform the nurses of the level of liquid that is being accumulated in the
bottle each day and on Friday the amount was less than 20 milliliters’. The
nurse told me to observe it over the weekend and if the amount remains low then
they would remove the drain on Monday. That would be great because then I might
be able to get some sleep. The Beast from the East has prevented me from being
able to go out because I was told the warmer the chest area remains the quicker
it was likely to heal. Not to mention the fact I am unable to drive for 2 weeks.
So, I did not want to risk it by going out in the cold for any prolonged period
of time. I did leave the house earlier in the week to go to Marks with a dear
friend who came to visit and that was nice but really cold. She was not
impressed with my warm coat. I am lucky that I am not one of those commuters
stuck somewhere on their way to work.
I have not had to take any of the codeine that I left the
hospital with, mainly because the pain has been manageable but yesterday I not
only leaned on the tubing which then pulled in my back but I also caught it in
several places as well as forget it was attached to me at one point, causing
the bottle to crash on the floor. The breast care nurse had already told me the
bottles were durable and not to worry about them falling. I have been given
anti-biotics and I am taking paracetamols as and when needed. I have been very
low over the last 12 hours or so and so I took to writing to figure out why and
this is my conclusion;
Control
They
take away my dignity
With
a flimsy hospital gown.
They
take away my femininity
And
remove a cancerous growth.
They
take away my nicotine
When
desperation requires a smoke.
They
take away my immortality
Reminding
me life is short.
They
take away my freedom
And
imprison me in this snow.
They
take away my movement
With
a drain stuck in my back.
They
take away my choices
And
feed me all that is good.
They
take and take and take
Until
my wings became broke.
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